Writer's Block Experienceby MERYL SMILE MATIENZO

Here I am again, thinking of a certain topic to write about for some piece d'accord. Unfortunately, these past few days were a bit of reality check. I think that I lost my ability to write.You see, everyday, I thought of pressures i'm into, of necessities of life, of my plight to a foreign soil, of my being alone in a desert of tranquility, of losing patience during working hours, of battling cries whenever I miss my family and friends, and of searching answers to questions. <BR><BR>It is so depressing to admit that I can't longer bring out the spark I once have when it comes to penning down articles of great interest. It was as if the world around my world turned 360 degrees. I had felt a surge of desperation for I can't write the things that makes me overwhelmed, satisfied, ignored, and exhausted. Even the choices of words I used in this article are not profound.No sounded words to remember by, no lines to be talked about,no up-scale style of writing to be proud of. What should I do?Should I gave up this talent?I'm closer to the picture of animosity. <BR><BR>I vividly remember that my first taste of writing was during my Kindergarten years.At an early age of five,I can write two stanzas of poems.Little by little, my mother would helped me out to get out of my shell and discover the wonders of poetry.She's a great storyteller and writer and until now her works are just amazing. Primary years were spent writing short stories,fables,and scripts for plays. It was my English teacher who encourged me to join workshops to delved on more about honing versatility in writing.It was a total new experience and that taught me the value of emotions. Emotions play a vital role to immerse oneself to create excellent stories and literary compositions.Highschool episode soon followed. It was my first time to see someone reciting my poems I've written in class. And boy,it was a fulfilling sight. It was in College that I found out that I can also write in-depth news, feature articles, and other forms of composition. The Knight, a student paper of Letran-Calamba helped me to become an accomplished writer.Let alone, it's excruciating but worth to be a part of it..Through the years in the College paper, I've experienced to be humilliated,questioned for grammatical errors, lambasted by the article I wrote about infanticipating college students, being recognized for the sounded articles I've written, and to be the subject of criticisms. <BR><BR>After my stint in the College paper,I thought that I don't have any avenue for writing.Yet, when I started a job in the academy, I was tasked to write pieces for the Elocution contests.It's really an opportunity for me again to share the craft I love with young people and old-alike. <BR><BR>I can't believe that with all the life I've put into writing,I'll end up saying:" I HAVE A WRITER'S BLOCK".It's as if someone took God's talent from me.How I've longed to write incredibly with sense and yet I couldn't come up with good material.Let it be so, that I will just rest my pen for a while and promise to return again with the passion and fervor in writing that I once had.